A question : forgetting

By : keishara Azhari

In my previous writing I implemented life as a book, which I believe is the closest explanation of the inside of my head. With that particular matter, someone asked me, “if life is a book, who is the reader?” then I answered “the readers are the people whom you opened up to, whom you trust for the whole book to be unlocked”

I went through my answer over and over which opened a single question in my head. The question that I asked so many people about for the past years.

“how can you forget the people that had read our book? Or simply be apart of each other and be strangers again”

The question that I asked so many times to the people around me. I’m the person that hardly got the chance to be free from the fear that somehow, someday I’ll lose another person in my life. Because I’m also the person who never forgets the people I love and loved.

My whole entire existence was bound to cherish relationships, even the smallest bits. So imagine my struggle of moving on or letting go of the people I used to spend my time with long enough that I opened my book to.

Glimpse of the past hurts more when you couldn’t reach the person that you saw. Losing the ones that made you smile wider than anyone, that held your hands tighter than anyone, are one of the hardest scenes of life.

The scare would never disappear. It is permanent, but the knowledge of understanding it is something that I’m looking for.

There is no pure definition or merely a map to this understanding. If we do understand, that’s something that came out of ourselves. There’s no right or wrong, there’s only what fits right or not to ourselves.

But this certain thing is inevitable, losing someone even though you thought this person would be in your life for the rest of it. There are surprises in life we can’t possibly prevent.

So what should we do? As time goes by, we learn from losing someone or something we gained a little. It is not a bad thing, it hurts, but at the end you’ll see that there are lessons that’ve been given without you knowing it.

Look at what you’ve gained, not what you lost.

Continue your days even though it hurts, keep moving on, and maybe my question will be answered. It is disturbing sometimes of the word “why” and “how” it is not an easy road, but as time goes, the more you understand.